Saturday, May 23, 2015

Wounds leave, scars don't

I was reading this book, and it talked about painful childhood memories; school. This girl was being bullied until she ended up killing herself. There was this time someone wrote offensive things on the board about her and the whole class laugh about it.
Why am I writing this? Because I’ve been there. I think I’ve been mentally bullied but I don’t really care about it. When I was thirteen; I was the class joke. Idk, people kept making fun of me and they even wrote insulting things about me on the board. I can still remember it clearly, when some of them ran, calling me to the class to see what they’ve wrote. You know what I did? I just came, look at it briefly, so I don’t remember things clearly, people are laughing; I laugh a bit and left. Idk why, it doesn’t offend me that much back then, it only hurts now. Maybe because I have my friends back then, who defend me, and cheer me up, and I was too happy to be sad. So, I don’t care.
Later, those guys apologize after I left the school and everything was okay as it never happened. I didn’t leave because of that thou, just simply because I can’t really study when I’m surrounded by people >.<
And there’s this one girl, who I’ve been closed to since I was ten, and she was the one scolding people who wrote bad things about me on the board, she was the one who’s always by my side; but I’ve never realized it. I did a lot of bad things to her, because I was too childish. Thinking about it, I felt stupid. She is amazing. She’s the bravest, smartest, toughest, and greatest person I have ever met. I wish I didn’t take her for granted when we were closed. I am really sorry, I miss you, and sincerely, thank you.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

The Long Night's Memories

Memories. You know what; we tend to remember things that we wish to forget and forgot what we desperately want to remember. It’s like when you’re studying for a test, you have read everything but then, on the paper, you just can’t find back that particular memory. Maybe because you just read it lightly or decided not to focus much on it. Then, your brain just discards the memory; that’s how fascinating our brains are. Everything is well organized without us noticing it. And one more amazing thing; our brain can actually create memories. You can remember things that didn’t actually happen to you and though that it’s one of your memories; but it is fake; and you didn’t even realize that. I was sitting on a test, and I’m pretty sure Vitamin B₁₂ is called Cyanocobalamin and confident that was the answer (so, I wrote that) but it turned out that the active form of Vitamin B₁₂ is Methylcobalamin and I didn’t even remember that! I mean, my brain just replace my memory with another and I’m so frustrated =.=*