Sunday, December 14, 2014

Don't Smile, I'm Nervous.

To be honest, I really hope they would give at least one OST song to Myungsoo. I mean, Myungsoo’s voice is really good. Or at least, they should include Shiwoo’s version of “Only You” in the OST album. When you listen to his voice, at first you might think like what’s wrong with his voice? ; it doesn’t suit his face; it sounds weird etc etc. but when you try listening to it while closing your eyes through the earphones; it actually sounds nice. He has this sweet kind of voice, and very addictive. I can’t stop myself from hearing his version of “I Temporarily Live by Your Side”, “I Think about You” and “This Song for You”. Thou the songs might bore a person after listening for so long, but his voice will never be. You just want to keep listening to it over and over again. I just wish there were at least one song of his in the OST of My Lovely Girl, his voice really suit this kind of mellow-ballad songs.

Sunday, November 23, 2014

I Miss You Even Worse

So few days ago, I dreamt about him. Wait, who is him? Is it the person I always talked and wrote about? Luckily, no it’s not him, yeay HAHA. I rarely dreamt about that person now. It was Kim Myungsoo! Yessss L of Infinite. He’s not technically my ultimate bias in Infinite and not because I hate him or what but simply because I don’t want him to be one. It seems so typical, people knew about Infinite because of L and like L and claimed to be an Inspirit just because  L is handsome and L and L and everything is about L so yeah I hate that. I don’t want to be one of them but I couldn’t stop myself from loving him. No, I’m not in love with L but Myungsoo. A naïve and a bit dumb and a math genius and anime lover and learn about love through anime and a bit blur sometimes and somehow awkward with stranger and health-food lover; that kind of person and he is Kim Myungsoo. Last time when I watched ‘My Lovely Girl’; when he dyed his hair back to dark colour; suddenly, my heart beat so fast. When he smiled with both eyes closed; showing his dimple, it made me nervous. And I went to sleep with the thought of him and he came into my dream and I was happy how I wish it will come true but I hate this virtual life of mine T.T
 "And I realized that a happy dream makes me feel even more miserable when I wake up." - Do Minjun



Sunday, November 16, 2014

Watch me forget you.

 Why do I want to write so badly? But I have no idea what to write on. Back in 2010, (wow it has been four years O.O) I had so many things to write about. Things were so much fun and even the simplest thing could make me smile. Well, it wasn’t because of the things back then but a person back then. Reading back my posts, how I wish today would be the same. But slowly, everything disappeared. But it is okay, I’m used to it. Wait, I said this too often, maybe the truth is that I’m not okay? I’m still not used to it? People said that friendship that lasts more than seven years would last forever, but guess that doesn’t apply to all. Time will keep going and people changed. Why am I sounded so depressed? Ahh I watched too much dramas. Yeah, I’m living a virtual life again. But I think I’ll slowly get over this. If back in those days, I missed that person everyday and then I kept missing and it slowly went away and now I’m okay without even thinking of it. So yeah, let’s watch drama~!

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Dream a sweet Dream :)

Annyeong~! So, kpop talks again kekeke. Lately, I’ve been listening to Winner’s songs a lot. At first I kept replaying ‘Empty’ as it was really addictive. And then I’m crazy over ‘Don’t flirt’ and the dance! I mean, it’s so cute. I’m falling for Nam Taehyun! And their butt dance kekeke their expressions were sooooo cute I’m dying right now! And Taehyun’s solo ‘Confession’ is addictive as well I’m melting T.T So, that’s enough with Winner. I’ve just ordered their album btw. And now I’m falling for LOVELYZ! It’s been a while since I got crazy over girl group. Oh wait, I’m an apink fangirl kekeke. I thought of buying apink’s album at first. I really like most of their song in Secret Garden and Pink Blossom, and Afiqah bought them so I want them too! But I was saving my money so goodbye apink. But still, i enjoyed their songs.  And now, I’m a LOVELYZ fangirl! I liked JIN’s ‘Gone’ since the first time I heard it. I’ve watched She’s A Flirt MV before but couldn’t remember well so I rewatched it and deeply falling in love with the song and the mv and Baby Soul! It would be great if Yoo Jiah debuted with them, she’s pretty and her voice is nice too. And they just released their MV of Goodnight Like Yesterday and I couldn’t stop myself from listening to it, it was sooo addictive! I’m going crazy right now. Ryo Sujeong is so pretty maybe she could become my bias? But I like Baby Soul and JIN and Kei and here I am with biases dilemma *pfft typical kpop fans problem*. Okay that’s all for today kekeke I might become more excited if I keep on writing so bye bye~~!

Friday, October 24, 2014

It’s the same story

Annyeong! So, yesterday was awesome! I've been lazy to go out; even outside of my chamber (a warm place; which is the closet in my hotel room) since i was too obsessed over WGM and the wifi. But since my parents had something to do the other day before, I had to ask someone to accompany me. So I called Shafiqah. I thought it might be awkward since we haven't seen each other for quite a while but it wasn’t at all! We kept talking and yeah time went by just like that. And we watched Divergent! (through the laptop but yeah it was fun). And the next day, amal came. She drove manual car! I mean, that was so cool. And we just walked around U Mall and Jusco Taman U. Yeah I kindda miss those places. So we just talking, joking and fooling around. All in all, it was a fun day. Thank you guys, for letting me leave Johor with some memories at least kekeke :)

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Stop playing and grab my stars.

Annyeonghaseyo :) kekeke I miss writing so much. So here I am, on a week holiday, spending my time travelling with my family. Well, not really travelling thou; just spending some times at hotel. It’s been a while since we went to any hotel. When we were still in Johor, we came to KL a lot and spent a night or two. The best thing about living (?) in the hotel room is the wifi! So yeah I spent my two days at Berjaya Times Square hotel staring at my phone screen.
Expectation       : Downloading Infinite’s related show that I haven’t watch then reading Anatomy book and studying while waiting for it.
Reality                  : Curling in the blanket with temperature of 15°C while watching We Got Married and fangirling over them.
OMO I love JjongAh (Hong Jonghyun + Yura) couple so much! Jonghyun is my ideal type! He’s so shy and awkward and cute and I love him. Is it okay for me to love someone’s husband? Kekeke. And then I found SoRim (Soeun + Song Jaerim) couple and I love him! I love Jaerim, he’s so talkative and attractive and aggressive. I mean, can I marry him? But then I realized; ahhh I like them all. My ideal type wasn’t Jonghyun or Jaerim but Korean namja kekeke. As long as you’re Korean and you’re a guy I can simply fall in love >.<

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Memories have no power.

Have you ever feel like you want to forget something or turn back the time? Sure all of us have regrets in our life, right? But what if you can choose; what will it be between having all the bad memories to be gone with the best memories or keeping both? Having to remember the hard time sure is torturing but isn’t forgetting the happiness hurts more? What will change if we can erase them all? Will our future be any different? And if it will, then will it be better? It wasn’t the memories and the past that will lead you to a better future but the present. Regretful past made us forget our best time, so instead, remember only the cherish time so the dark memories will slowly disappear.
Just because you have the memories and the past, it doesn’t mean that you can still have what is used to be yours; it only means that you have to move on.


Sunday, September 21, 2014

Your birthday comes only once a year.

Hey you! This post is especially dedicated for the sweetest, clumsiest, cutest, and joyah-est girl on Earth! Dear Nadia Syamin, thank you for being born. It was about a week after we were enrolled in UiTM Puncak Alam. You were late and a friend of yours reserved a seat for you. I sat on the empty seat beside. When you came, the class almost started (typical Nadia since the beginning, pfft.) And then you asked me out of nowhere to accompany you to the office due to some email issues. Starting from that moment, we became closer and I don’t remember what happen until then. I can’t remember what we did until we became this close.
All I want to say is that thank you again for approaching me that day. My life has become brighter there since I met you. Because of you, we got closer to Asyafiqa and Jijiel as well since you were the one suggesting forming a group with the four of us during Biology Lab. Because of you, Aimang asked all four of us to teach him Mathematics (but Jijiel was the one doing all the teaching) and brought Adae along. Because of you, KELING was formed. Because of you, we were happy until our last day and even until now, we were still together; the six of us.
I used to wait for you before going to class (even when I thought it will take forever pfft) and scolding on how late you were on our way but somehow, I miss those moments. It might be hard to find someone like you again. Yeah, I kindda miss you. This post has been too long already. All in all, I miss you and Saranghae! Until we meet again. Stay happy and wake up early okay! Take care :) 

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

I knew this feeling.


It’s weird thou, I thought I’ve lost my interest towards Nam Woohyun; I thought I really am falling for Song Samdong, but then Kim Joowon appeared and I couldn’t stop thinking of him; and now, Shin Woohyun! I was watching Hi School Love On and I’m falling in love again T_T I don’t know for how many times I’ve been falling and I don’t even know what’s real and what am I playing with my mind. Frankly, I’m afraid if I ever turn my back on Infinite; I’m afraid if I move on; I’m afraid if I’m no longer an Inspirit. But today, my heart was beating again; just like the first time I fell in love with Infinite; it was beating so fast and that moment, I knew, that I still love you; as much as I did when I first saw you.

They said that love might change, well, I did waver for a moment, but I won’t change. So, please keep appearing in front of me so I’ll stay.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

This love that came like the wind.

10 Dramas for a month I think; since I quit my job. So yeah, 10 awesome dramas and I'm happy. If Kim Myungsoo learnt about love through manga, then I learnt through dramas >.<

Kim Joo Won; who dumbly throw everything even his life just so that the person can live in his body instead (It’s selfish but Hyunbin is really cute tbh)

Song Sam Dong; who didn’t give up until the end even after losing his hearing and keep chasing his dream (Kim Soohyun is the cutest when talking in Satoori)

Oh Soo; who pretended to be the fake brother for money but then fell in love with his fake sister and found his reason to live (the way Jo Insung walks; i mean, like a model)

Choi Han Kyung; who didn’t even care whether she’s a man or an alien and want to go as far as he could (how can Gong Yoo looks so cute when he smiles? I mean, he’s already too old)

Do Min Jun; who didn’t go to the star and choose to stay on Earth even he’s been waiting for 400 years to go back (Yah Kim Soohyun! You’re really a handsome alien)

Kang Maru; who took the blame for what he didn’t do and discover that it wasn’t love but a foolish act (I never knew Song Joongki was this cute)

Park Hoon;who grew up killing people but ended up being the most thoughtful doctor because doctor save people (Lee Jongsuk was my first actor bias actually)

Jang Junhyeon; who fell to the rock bottom and finally got up and chose to disappear for a moment (I can’t remember his real name thou; Jin Hyunwoo)

Jin Yujin; who chose the right thing that he wanted to do with his life and not being a training dog (Jung Jinwoon’s voice is something, really)

Eun Dae Goo; who once wanted revenge and finally found the truth and pretending to kill himself in order to kill the murder (It was the first time I noticed how cute Lee Seunggi is)

So, I’ve spent my whole holiday with these dramas; finishing them within two days and longing for a while before starting a new one.  The best one out of these dramas is ofc the first one I wrote about, because I’m still in love with Kim Joo won; SECRET GARDEN.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

No matter what happens, trust me and don’t stop.

Hi. It’s been a while and I miss writing a lot! There are so many things I want to write about but I haven’t had much time lately. So, I’ve just finished reading this Fixi, ‘Awan’. First of all, I would like to thank Syafiq Aizat for his awesome writing. The messages were very deep and I cried! So congratulations for making this girl cry while reading your piece. It was superb and it hurts a lot because I was jealous of the friendship. When I close my eyes, I just realized that I don’t really have vivid memories of friendship while in school; like the only person that you just want to share everything until forever. But I’m happy enough with the memories I have and I’m trying to be a better person. For some reason, or no reason at all, I have been really selfish and I didn’t treasure the true meaning of friendship. It might be late to realize because school days were the best days of our life; they day we knew the meaning of friendship but I missed that. But it’s never too late for anything; right? Without darkness, you can’t see the stars.

Thank you, Syafiq Aizat, for lending me these two awesome guys; Izaq and Fa’iq :)

Just like Diamonds

Just the moment when we were happy enough to smile for the simplest things in life. Thank you for the memories, thank you for being there and thank you for being you :)

Saturday, August 9, 2014

I know, nothing lasts forever

Hey. It’s been a while. Apparently, today I won’t be writing about Eid but about reasons and dream instead. I’ve been spending a while watching this drama called ‘Dream High’. Thou it was an old drama, I just started watching it because of Kim Soohyun. I finished watching the whole drama at 5.30 A.M. last night and went to sleep just after that. That’s how obsessed I am when it comes to drama; and that’s how much I love it.
Right now, I admit, I’m in love with a character in the drama and not a real person. Song Sam Dong, I don’t really know what I like about this guy, he’s dumb and naïve and spoke in Satoori (dialect) and probably those are the reasons why I like him a lot; someone who’s simply just dumb and smiles a lot. Do Min Jun, yes he’s a character played by Kim Soohyun as well but why don’t I get the same feeling? Do Min Jun rarely smiles and he’s smart. So now, I just figured why I like a person, I like someone who’s dangerously dumb and smiles a lot no matter what’s going on.
Dream? I’m not even sure about my dream yet. Well, I have this one foolish dream but I don’t know how I’m going to approach my dream. I think, for me to archive this dream, I need to have another clear goal.
Why am I like this? I realized something after watching drama. If Kim Myungsoo can say that he only learns about love through manga, then I can say that I learnt about life and love through drama. Drama gave me a break in life, to just stop thinking for a while and walk in to someone else’s life. Before, I kept on being too clingy and I depended on a person too much. Infinite actually walk me out of it. To just have my own world, even a virtual world, I was happy; in fact, I’m happy now. I don’t have to take care of others’ heart; and I don’t have to take care of my own heart.


Wednesday, July 9, 2014

The weak gets devoured.

Annyeong! It’s been a while since the last time I’ve wrote here. I’ve been busy with works and stuffs. But I haven’t share about my working experiences yet. So here I go. From the first day, well, it wasn’t hard but it wasn’t easy either. There’s this women who works there as well and she told me a lot about our bosses who apparently are stingy, greedy and cunning. So I went home with a thought of how bad my bosses are (they’re husband and wife).
After a few months passed, I thought, ahhh my bosses aren’t that bad, that women always talks behind peoples' back; she even talked about me and the others. It was hurtful at first but I got used to it. She’s in her 40s by the way. So what I’ve learnt is that the older you get, actually, you got worse (?).
So why did I quit? So here’s the story. My bosses are bad! Since they have their own brand; they made their own clothes and the tailors are just youngster; they’re the same age as me. They’ve signed a contract saying that in June, their basic salary would be RM1000 but for their June salary, they just got RM500 as their basic salary and when they asked the boss about this, she said that they got the contract wrong (she didn’t give any copies to them). So they decided to just quit but the boss threaten to sue them and everything but I said just quit, they can’t sue a minor, I mean, aren’t you ashamed of yourselves for suing young kids? I'm really pissed off, I don't want to live in such life.
I took a day off few days ago as I need to settle some things. The boss sent a message on our group chatroom saying that an employer shouldn’t just take a day off freely as they wish and bla bla bla so I thought I should just quit since I couldn’t give full commitment. All in all, it's just that we're like a slave to our bosses; they can just do whatever they want without even considering others. It was a really long story actually but I just cut it off. This is already too long >.<

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Tho someday your name might become strange heart will always remember our memories together.

That cherished moment when everyone was online at the same time. The six of us, even we’re far apart, there is one thing that kept us strong together; ourselves. Exactly at 22:06, all of us send our text simultaneously. Thou it was just a simple “hahaha” written, we were also laughing while typing it. We were sincere; we were having fun; we were happy. That is how much we’re important to each other; we made each other smile even for the smallest thing.
The friends at my side are just like stars which shine on me who’s in darkness. I will also be the star who will shine on someone; forever there.
Present. In English, it has two meanings: a gift, and also the current moment. It may be that the most precious gift to us is the present, the time in front of us now. True, we may always be bickering with each other, but we leaned on each other and were happy together.

Monday, April 7, 2014

Help me, I'm Trapped.

Have you ever had this feeling; it was like you fell for someone for some time but then you want to forget that person so you let yourself fell for someone else but when you did, you suddenly fell for the first person again (okay this sound so Keling) but I don’t really know how to explain it. I don’t even know what this feeling is; do I like that person? Do I adore that person? Am I falling in love? Seriously, I never really understand my own feeling. Even if you ask me; why do you like Infinite so much? There are lots of answers I can think of; they’re handsome, their voices are awesome, they way they treat their fans, their hardship, their humbleness, their dumbness, their fashion sense, their attitude; everything about them I like, but the most perfect answer for that question is ‘I don’t know’.
It just happened; I just happen to like that person without even knowing why. People said it’s impossible to like someone when you barely know that person. Yeah, it’s true. So that’s why I don’t know the reason for liking that person; I don’t even know whether I really like that person or not.
When your heart doesn’t tell you the truth, the pain will tell you the answer.


Friday, April 4, 2014

Because I Miss You Again.

Just spending and wasting some time with them before we went to our own path T_T it's hard to believe that Asasi is done. So here we are, the Kelings; to conquer the world~!
It was quite scary at first since it was raining and the wiper doesn't wipe well (?) but thanks to the awesome driver that we manage to come home safely kekeke. Thanks adam~!
Selfie is a must! kekeke

 At the bowling alley. Great game kekeke, seriously, Adam was awesome! Turkey~ ahhh and Nadia was awesome too HAHA (sarcastically)

 Aimang struggling to fit in the picture HAHA.
 The horse smelled like Aimang HAHA. Thou there are still so many things I want to do with you guys, but still, this was one of the best moment. Time went by so fast T_T

Ehem? so sweet HAHA
They are the best people and we fell in love with the horse! From  Pahang to Terengganu to Perlis to Johor to Kelantan to Selangor . Even the distance may keep us apart, but we can always be together bacause we are The Kelings! There are strings that are never meant to be broken and that is friendship ^^
Thou it was just simple; with KFC and bowling but being with you guys made it special. Thank you for coming into my life and bringing the joy:)
I'm just too sleepy to write more

Monday, March 31, 2014

Let me hear your breath.

It’s been a while, where are you? I tried holding on to you, reaching you but you seemed to have forgotten me. I was scrolling my blog; reading the older posts and found that I wrote quite a lot about you.  I smiled; because of our cherished memories back then but it disappeared; you disappeared. Is this the end? Then, can I remove you picture from this blog? Will you be hurt? Will you notice it? Will you be sad like the last time I did remove your picture? Will you comeback if I delete it? Will you come back if I start forgetting you? Will you be reading this post? Do you still read my blog? Do you still remember my blog? Do you still remember me? Please answer me. Please let me at least hear your breath.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Please come and never go.

 Have you ever feel like there’s something in your heart; just looking for a way to come out? I don’t know what is this feeling; but it hurts; a lot. Maybe, just maybe, I was enjoying the present to much that I forgot, it won’t last forever. People said that loneliness hurts; but little did they know that what hurts is actually happiness. We were too happy that when it’s gone; it feels empty. Sometimes, we were too happy to realize someone is hurting.
Promise me you won’t leave me, promise me we’ll still like this forever, promise me to keep this promise; we often neglect the reality that we only hear what we want to hear. The further we go, the more hurtful it became.

Your drama has a long way to go before it’s over. So don’t force yourself to go quickly. If you go slowly, you can see a lot more, in more detail, than the people who go quickly. If you ask me who would grow more between those two, I’d say it’s the one who goes slowly and sees a lot.
Do you know what it means to become an adult? It means there’s less and less to smile about. So we’ll have to smile even more, even if we have to force it.
They say that there are two types of happiness. One is a happiness that you realize after the fact and the other is a happiness you feel in the moment. That happiness you feel in the moment is so precious that they say that the memories of this kind of happiness can stay with you and enlighten your life. Maybe we’ll go on remembering this moment today, like that kind of happiness… that we can remember for the rest of our lives, the moment when we shined.

I was holding on to my trembling heart.

I wonder what this feeling is; regretful? Over excited? Scared? To be honest, I never really understand my own feelings. But when I’m happy, I never faked it. But at the same time, when I’m happy, I stop thinking. It was like, everything just came out and I didn’t even realize what I was doing. When I got my brain straight, just then I realize; what was I doing? It’s shameful; to the point that sometimes I want to stop seeing people but no matter how hard I try, things never change. I wonder; is it me who doesn’t want to change or I never really learn from mistakes?
The reason my teen years are like a rushing wind is because I don’t yet know the answers; what it is I really want, who really loves me, who is it that I love. The time of life is when I tumble here and there, searching for the answers.
There are times when everyone wants to die. Even if you wanted to die, the fact that you endured it was great.
Don’t compete with your past but rather expect great things from your future and love your present self.

-REPLY 1997 END-

Monday, March 24, 2014

Yes, I’ll listen, although it’ll be all lies


 It sometimes bothers me. It just happened and without realizing, we're lying. It was like, when we’re trying to end a conversation, but then we’re still on a conversation with another person. Being the one who got ignored, yeah it was hurtful but then come to think about it, who hasn’t done it? I mean, we don’t really mean to end that it; maybe we really got to leave but then some other thing got us hang around.
There are truths in the world that are better not known. Sometimes, to lie is better so that they won’t hurt.
Most people prefer to disregard the truth as the truth is more uncomfortable than the lie.

Yes, the truth is uncomfortable. But if we don't embrace that discomfort, then we must live the rest of our lives believing what's fake to be real. So even uncomfortable truths must be embraced. What you see is not everything.


Saturday, March 22, 2014

All the best people are insane.

Friendship sometimes requires understanding, loyalty, jealousy and wasting time.
Annyeong~! It’s been quite a while since my last update. I was ‘busy’ lately. Mianhae bloggy-ah. So here they are, the Kelings! I haven’t write about them yet even we’ve been close for quite a while. They are awesome people who I met during my two semesters here in UiTM Puncak Alam.
Nadia Syamin bt Samsudin.
She’s the closest one to me. I don’t really know what to write about her but I know that she’s the crazy. We have a lot of in common actually; we often slept in class, we came late to class and we eat a lot HAHA. Thank you for making my life here more cheerful, thank you for still being here for me, thank you for being such a great friend even I often make you mad >.< You've taught me a lot especially on appreciating and understanding people better. And most importantly, thank you for being my life savior here. Sorry for all those mistakes and I hope our ties can never be broken.
Anis Syafiqa bt Rosman.
Well, I don’t really remember how we know each other but out of sudden, we became great friend. Thou I remember how hard you try to show how handsome celip is to us during sem 1 HAHA yes you can take him. For my beloved friend, I’ll back off so you can have celip. Thank you for the awesome things you’ve done even I could be really annoying; thank you for not hating me and never forget me!
Azila bt Mostafa.
Jijiel~! The most sporting person I have ever met. Thank you for cheering us all. I never really like taking pictures but since I met you, well, you know what’s happening now HAHA. She’s the first person to force me on taking picture with her; when I was having an eye illness  =_= .  Thank you for being a teacher to us and thank you for giving such a wonderful memory ^^
Syed Muhammad Aiman bin Syed Mohd Hakhiri.
The fanboy who approached me first; calling me Infinite HAHA. I never thought we’d be this close. Thank you for listening to my kpop stories and being the only one who understand me (about kpop) here. It’s awesome to have someone who we can be crazy over kpop with. You're a great friend, so never let others bring you down, arasso? And you’re the most insane Keling ever!  HAHA thank you for cheering our days. 그냥, 너무 너무 감사합니~
Adam bin Mohd Bakri.
Adae. I don’t really know you much but still, thank you. Sorry for hijacking your phone a lot and I know your password~ HAHA. It was fun being able to know you and go crazy with all the Kelings. Sorry for making you chase me; it was quite embarrassing actually. All in all, just a simple thank you for every memories.

Saturday, January 25, 2014

One Shot.

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question,
no matter how silly it sounds!
Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
4. Ok, go!
5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, -
and make sure to tag the person who sent you this.

The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

2. How would you describe yourself?

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?


4. How do you feel today?


5. What is your life’s purpose?

6. What's your motto?


7. What do your friends think of you?

8. What do you think of your parents?


9. What do you think about very often?


10. What is 2 + 2?


11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?


12. What do you think of the person you like?

13. What is your life story?

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?


16. What will you dance to at your wedding?


17. What will they play at your funeral?


18. What is your biggest fear?

19. What is your biggest secret?


20. What will you post this as?


I've done this tho but somehow I want to do it again.
It's quite fun in since I was a bit stress over studying.